I have returned.

I'm sorry for going AWOL, but I am back- kind of, sort of, yeah..
So a while back I explained why and how on my Twitch stream, I figured I should post it on this blog too.
Basically, long version short, it didn't work out between me and my (now) ex.
After deciding splitting up was the best thing to do before we'd start to hate each other I moved back to Amsterdam.. where I've been for the past 2 weeks now.
I literally haven't sat still ever since, which is also why this blog post is late- then again, what else is new?
We arrived on monday evening, and tuesday afternoon I got a job, which I started the day after.. on wednesday.

Ever since I've just been running around trying to take care of everything, which isn't easy.
I only have sundays and mondays off (for now), which makes doing things with the municipality a pain in the butt.. and now it's the easter weekend too, so even today I can't get important shit done.
Either way, this job is basically until September because I hope to get accepted into uni to study International Business.
Which I find incredibly exciting! So I keep my fingers crossed :)
I'll make sure to post a full on update on how the journey went etc soon, whenever I have the time and energy to do so. I haven't had a proper sleep since I came back, I keep waking up every 2 hours and it's draining me.
But now atleast you have some kind of idea of what's going on and why and how and where and such.

Alright, Damsel out.

The promised update

Uhh hi!
It's been two weeks since I promised I'd give you an update, and I tried, but life got in the way.
Or rather my new/old lifestyle got in the way. Sorry about that.

As I touched upon in the last ''update'', I am officially unemployed for about 2 weeks now.
This means that my entire rhythm changed and it took me some time to find a schedule I feel comfortable with.
The job was only for the summer, so I was surprised that it lasted until October, but luckily I've already been invited back for the next season which will be from April on, so it's not that far away. I have all the faith in the world that we can make it off one salary, we survived last year too. I will however be looking for a part time job.

Which brings me to what fills my days now that I have all the time in the world.
I still get up as early as 6 in the morning, the cat doesn't let me sleep in anyways.
It's also because sleeping until 10 or 11 feels like such a waste of time now that I've woken up at 6 for such a long time. Anyways, after that I usually start cleaning, get ready and start streaming.

Yes you read that right.
I stream again.
Basically fulltime.

Off my last salary I made sure I bought the parts needed for me to be able to stream properly.
I bought a new motherboard, cpu and some new ram.. and let me tell you, it's changed EVERYTHING.
I no longer feel like streaming is a cause of stress, because I constantly have to look over to my second screen to make sure everything runs smooth, to make sure I don't have encoding issues, freezing issues, lag issues.
I can just enjoy it, and that's what I've been doing from Monday until Friday.
It's enabled the option for me to stream whatever I want, whenever I want, without having to worry about anything other than enjoying my time, and it's been going so well.
I get a steady amount of followers every day, and my viewers are going up too. It makes me so happy to know that it's actually going somewhere, and with so much ease now that my computer is working properly. I honestly feel so blessed and happy with the little community we've managed to build so far and I'd like to thank all of you who are in that community. I love you guys so much and thank you so so much for supporting me <3

All the positivity that has come from the streaming has encouraged me to finally make another big step towards even more happiness.
We've been planning it for a while but I feel like I am 100% ready to make the next step into becoming healthy.
As soon as I can I will sign up to a gym which is approximately 10 minutes away from us. I will be working my ass off to turn into the best version of me, the healthiest version of me, the happiest version of me. I plan to go every morning from Monday until Friday at 6 AM. It'll fill up some of my time, and it'll give me loads of energy to continue the rest of the day with. I mean I am awake at that time anyways, might aswel make the most of it.
Go hard or go home, or rather go hard and then go home to do more things.

I am super excited about these changes and I can't wait.
I know I said I'd post the goals I set for myself for the fall season, but that will have to wait a week or two! (I mean it this time!)

Thanks for reading my incredibly long and probably boring update, but it got me excited.. so there..

Alright, well for now,

New beginnings.

                                                                                                                                           Brahälla, Sverige. By me.

As promised, here it is: (one of) the (many) update(s).

First of all, I'm doing fine, this is not a post to get you to worry or anything, like I stated in my previous post I'd like to change the direction of this blog a little.
The reason I started this blog was so I could release my creative juices whilst giving friends and family at home updates on how I'm doing, keeping a diary. The fact of the matter is that when you live somewhere new not every day is going to be an adventure. Almost a year in and honestly, I haven't done nearly as much as I expected. Which is okay, but a bit boring blog-wise. I decided that since I'm not longer live streaming (for now), I have more time to put into blogging (and everything else). As you can see, unless this is the first time you're here (Hi!), or you have just never paid attention (good possibility), I have a new lay out for my blog. With the new lay-out and style of the blog I'm getting a new domain too, which you will read about when the time has come. I shall post it on both my social media and here when it's been accepted and finalized :).

So what is this new direction we're heading in?

Glad that you ask, or didn't.
I have gathered quite some ideas over the past weeks, I will obviously still reflect on the things I have done, share pictures, songs and quotes that I'll have made and/or come across. On top of that there'll be some new additions. I will post monthly goals that I'll set for myself, certain recipes of things I made and loved, lists with things that interest/not interest me, tips and tops and maybe even certain challenges! I also have my first trip home coming up and might even try to do my first ever 'vlog'. With that said, if you have any comments or questions you can always comment on these blogs or hit me up on my social media! (Links are next to the 'arkiv' button under the header of the page). I am really excited for these changes since I am trying to turn my whole life upside down a bit, which I will reflect on in another post! (once again, don't worry.)

So I think that was it for now and I will start working on a new blogpost tomorrow!
Thanks for everyone who read this and as always,